What a pain in the butt

Literally. I had to see the surgeon today because, apparently, it's not ok to leave an open wound with packing in it without having it changed. So we went to the surgeon who had a sense of humor (of sorts) and began the conversation with "can i see your butt?" and then said he was just 'going to look'. WELL, that going to look ended up being him yanking out the packing, and then proceeding to squeeze my open wound to make sure it was all cleared from infection, and THEN topping off that wonderful visit by RE-PACKING the wound - ALL WITHOUT ANY PAIN CONTROL. Mind you, at the ER they gave me a shot of morphine before they even touched the area. They then used local anesthetic to numb it and even then it hurt a bit...but today was... full of tears and followed with a viocodin and chinese food.

Tonight, after our eventful day, Nic's Uncle Paul came to visit which was great because it was the first time the kids and I have been able to meet him. He stayed for quite awhile, they talked football stuff and I sat there on the couch, pretty much completely unmoving and half asleep because of my loopy pills. BUT the kids truly enjoyed playing his phone and talking to him. Even the shy Juliette was up, laying on the arm of the couch right next to him talking his ear off. Tomorrow we are going to make the hour long drive out to his place so we can see Kieran (Nic's aunt), along with his cousins and will hopefully be able to visit Kieran's ranch. She's got horses and the kids are going to be ecstatic! I will, likely, be worried they are going to spook a horse, get kicked or otherwise hurt themselves but I'll be too slow moving to stop them if they do. LOL

Anyhow, during his visit Uncle Paul held Cayleigh for a good 45 minutes in which time we snapped a few shots. She only stayed awake for a few short minutes before snuggling into him and dozing off for a nap. She is just so, so sweet. You really can't help but love her :)

This lady is going to bed! Thankful for 4 beautiful children, a great husband, strong marriage, a God who is faithful and in control, a home to call our own, our health, and just every other blessing God has bestowed upon us ~ and even those we can't see just yet. I am just thankful. God is so good - and I hope you know Him.

Before


After

Pain, Sleep, Cheer and Legos

Daddy pretty much handled things today since I had an unexpected surgery last night. Just been in a little pain today and am thankful he was home to help so much. We ended up keeping the kids home from school because we didn't have the van but Nic got it all taken care of and our van is happily parked in the garage tonight. Daddy took Juliette to cheer practice today so I didn't get to see what she worked on & have no pictures. However, he brought home a sheet of her cheer moves and another sheet with the actual chants. Are they even called chants? Anyhow ~ she was excited to go this time and came home, ready to eat and go to bed. That means she must've worked hard, right? Tayla and I worked on her enterance questions for the FLL (First Lego League) Robotics Club that she wants to be a part of. Tomorrow she will submit the form at school and we should hear something next week. Next week also starts the beginning of her 2 week long, before and after school Safety Committee (Crossing Guard type thing) Duties. Jacob really wanted to be a part of the FLL Club but he isn't old enough yet. So we will keep our ears and eyes open to get him started in some type of sport or club. All of these opportunities for the kids is an affirmation for me that moving here was the right move for our family. I definitely had a peace about it and believe fully that if you have peace about something after praying then the Holy Spirit must be guiding you in that direction. Next Wednesday, Sept 5th, we will have our "big" ultrasound and first meeting with this high-risk doctors group locally. I'm ready to meet these doctors and see what they have to say. They specialize in 'advanced ultrasounds and testing' so we'll see what happens. I am just ready to have them tell me this IS a boy. Because I already know it in my heart and believe fully that the Lord spoke to me and told me I would have a son, and was to name him Noah, two weeks before I even found out I was pregnant. So here I am, ready to bed (again, because I had a nap today) and in not as much pain as I was earlier thanks to my 'friend' Norco. I'm definitely ready to NOT have to take these stupid pills, but I'll keep them on hand for after the c-section. Anyhow ~ I hope you're all having a great night. A big thanks to everyone who has helped us get closer to getting the equipment we desperately need for our Cayleigh. I can't wait to see how much she lights up when she can see. We've had glasses before, but they weren't special fit, custom glasses and they squeezed her eyeball, her face and just weren't right for her. Time for me to get to bed!

Cheer Baby, Cheer

If you've ever heard the sound of an overly heavy sigh being let out of an exhausted woman inser that *right here* This morning daddy took them to school while I took care of the beautiful Ms Cayleigh. While he's home we switch on and off which allows one of us to get that glorious extra 30 minutes of sleep. I spent my day with Cayleigh Jean after running errands this morning, and ended up taking oodles of vidoes and pictures of her perfectness. I especially love how happy she is when I bounce her on my leg... her smile could melt an iceberg. When it came time to pick up the kids from school I prepared all of her equipment, and feeding stuff, and we headed in to Tayla's Robotnics seminar at the school to learn about their selection process. Out of the thirty + kids there, only 10 slots were available to be on the team. They (the two men presenting) would select their candidates based on their responses on a form we brought home. At this point, she'll complete it and 'we'll see'. I had enough time to get dinner together, feed Cayleigh and then it was off to Juliette's cheer practice tonight. She did SO great. I was beyond proud and thrilled that her team is the Green Bay Packers. Her coaches name is Cindy and she seemed to be very nice. Juliette is the only Kindergartener and seemed small in comparison to the other girls on the squad. Since this lady is beyond ready for bed I'll just include a few pictures I was able to snap. I wanted to be close but not distracting but she did brilliantly! She got the basics down and we'll be practicing here at home. For her very first time ever cheerleading, and having never ever seen cheerleaders on TV before, she did AWESOME. Oh, and when I put her to bed tonight she was combing her hair. I said to her "here, let me help" to which she said "Mom, I got this, I'm a cheerleader you know". How could I forget?

Busy Schedules.. CHECK

Tomorrow begins the chaos. We just signed Juliette, the 5 yr old Kindergartener, for cheerleading and her coach called tonight with the schedule. They will have practice twice a week, Tuesday & Thursdays, for an hour in the evening. She has no experience, will be the only Grade K on the squad and is both hesitant and excited all at the same time. Her little outfit "uniform" will be here within the next week or so and their first 'game' is in 2 weeks! Holy cow! Tayla, the 11 yr old 6th grader, signed up for Crossing Guard duties at the school and her week long (bi-weekly) shift, where I'll have to have her at school at 8:00 am (40 minutes early) and pick up 15 minutes after school gets out. Tomorrow, however, she and I (along with the rest of the kids) will be attending an after school meeting for the Lego Robotonics team which she wants to try out for. She'll have to complete some type of project and then submit it. I'm assuming they then 'judge' the projects and decide who will be included in the club and who won't. They'll then be put onto teams to work together and build totally awesome, moving, stuff. Jacob hasn't found his niche just yet - but we're on the prowl. Cayleigh starts PT and OT within the next month or so and we'll see how it goes! That's it for tonight.... thanks for reading

Intro

Here is an attempt at keeping in touch with family & friends (outside of Facebook *gasp*). This blog will be managed by both Nic & I, but mostly just me :) Hope you all will select "Follow" so you'll be able to stay on top of wen new posts are available. Our lives aren't necessarily the most interesting, action packed or fun filled - but its the one we choose to live. A family of 6 with #7 in the works... here's to trying to actually keep up a blog for once ;)

Cayleigh Jean

Cayleigh Jean, Cayleigh Jean..what do you see?
Friday, April 6, 2012

Cayleigh was in the hospital at Childrens Oakland in the ICU for quite some time {over week} with Pnuemonia, RSV and Bronchiolitis! Poor kid. She was actually put on a ventilator as it was just too much with her retractions to be able to breathe without really, REALLY struggling.

That being said..... she's home. She's doing pretty great considering all she's been through. With 3 days of NPO (not given any food) she lost more than 2 lbs but, on the bright side, she can now fit in her skinny jeans. *kidding*

We're so happy she's back. It's always such a devastation when she goes in to the hospital and its not just because she's sick. It's the emotional, financial and mental impact it all has on all of us. There's stuff you see in the ICU that you just shouldn't ever have to see, or have happen to you, in your lifetime. The hardest part? Having to be away from her for any extended amount of time. She's a big girl now and she knows if we aren't there. She's got definite stranger anxiety and she'll cry if she doesn't know someone (her silent crying) or just doesn't like them. That doesn't just pull at your heart strings as parents - it literally takes surgical scissors and cuts them altogether. We were able to stay pretty close at a nearby hotel thanks to the unforseen support of strangers. It's incredible the way that God blesses those who love Him using His people. :)

For those who aren't up to the latest:

Cayleigh is 13 1/2 months
She can roll from her back to her stomach from either side
She uses her arms alot more than she ever has
She loves to play with her thumbs
She has a trach
She has a g-tube
She has an incredible smile
She loves Brown Bear, Brown Bear Chicka Chicka ABC and any Touch & Feel book
She knows DADA and lights up if she hears him, senses him or you say his name
She wiggles...ALOT
She's hard to hold because she wiggles so much
She SORT OF can sit up
She can pretty much hold her head up by herself
She has beautiful eyes
She has curly hair
She drools alot
She's my sunshine

Lift is so busy

March 6, 2012

There's nothing like remembering to post your blessings after you've tried to convince yourself to blog about your blessings every day. My blessings are plentiful and I didn't mean to forget to post them..but still, I did.

So here is what I'm thankful for...

1. My husband, because he's amazing and after having had him in my life I'd be lost without him

2. My children, they are the reason I'm who I am. I've been a mother for over a decade (11 years this August) and I learn something new about being how to be better at it each day. I think Cay really took me from just a other to being someone who is trying to be more understanding, more patient, more loving and most of all - appreciative of my children.

3. My time and talent that the Lord has given to me. I only hope to bless others abundantly in the time to come.

My Greatest Blessings

March 3, 2012


I felt compelled to write tonight about my greatest accomplishments in life. For some, your greatest accomplishment may bring to mind tangible things like your home, car, job or even your education. My greatest accomplishment in life are not things that can be achieved - they are the very people that God has blessed my life with - my family.

My greatest accomplishments are in the form of blessings. I feel honored that God ordained for me to be the mother of four amazing children and the wife to one amazing man. Of all His people, He chose me. Wow, just wow. How LUCKY am I?

I saw a young mother this afternoon in the checkout line at the store who had two young, tow headed boys around 5 and 2. The smallest boy idolized his big brother and wanted to touch everything his big brother touched, to go where he went and to show him everything he found interesting. Mind you, these young boys were faced with an array of candy, toys and other craft items that are there with the sole purpose of pressing on our impulse buying nerves. Well, the youngest boy picked up, touched and 'oooh'd' over just about everything he saw. The mother was so clearly frazzled and tended to the boys while trying not to lose her place in an every growing line. As she told the youngest boy, for the tenth time, that he needed to put the cotton candy snack down because they weren't buying it, she looked at me with apologetic eyes. I smiled at her and said "Just think, in a few years you won't be able to get them to go to the store with you even if you tried". It must've hit her like a ton of bricks because her voice perked up and she smiled and said "I try to remember that" and I said "You've been really blessed with those boys".

So tonight I'm remembering that I, too, have been really blessed. I love my children, I love my husband, and I will make each day one in which I treasure the very moments that I have with them here on Earth, and I will remind them and be comforted in knowing that I will be with them in Heaven forevermore. Thank the Lord for the promise of eternal life.

Remember that we only have a few short years to mold our children, to teach them right from wrong and to instill in them the values that will shape their future.

Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.

I am THANKFUL for...

1 Eternal Life
2 My Salvation
3 My Husband
4 My Children
5 YOU

Oh Man

Dang.
2-21-12

It's not that I haven't had blessings {because I have}, it's just that I haven't remembered to post them. *sigh* I think I warned myself about this when I first began this blog - but here I am! So, HA! (and I say that to myself)

Today was an uneventful day outside of my waking up {dreadfully sick, finding out the day nurse we'd just hired called off that day, Nic taking care of Cayleigh & Juliette all day while I was quarantined in the bedroom, Nic getting a call from the nursing agency to find out the day nurse had quit stating it was "too hard", and then {again} Nic finishing up the night feeding the kids, getting them bathed, in bed, pj's on, our dinner made} and am now sitting here typing this. *yawn*

Today I'm thankful for...

#1 GOD - For His Mercy, Healing, Forgiveness, Provisions, Love and for being HIM!
#2 MY HUSBAND - For Being The Very Best Husband EVER
#3 MY CHILDREN - For Being My Children.. the good, the bad and the ugly.
#4 My BUSINESS - For The Possibilities and the Blessings.

That's about all this clouded head can muster up tonight. But hey, I remembered to blog and that counts for something.

1 John 4:16 "....God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. "

I dropped my dinner on the floor today.

2-6-82.. err...2012

It's my birthday

So I turned the big 30 today. Whoopty Doo. I actually visualized this 'milestone' as being much more intimidating than it actually was/is. My day was filled with my husband, my children and just being a mom. It's who I am now, it's what I've been meant to do. I woke up this morning and got the oldest two kids off to school and started to pack up as I was going to be rotating with Nic staying with Cayleigh. In all honesty, and by the lack of change of clothes aside from PJs and lack of Conditioner - I in no way thought we were staying another night. Come to find out we were not only staying another night (or few) but they were going to transfer her to UCSF. So I stayed as late as I could with Julez as my sidekick and we (with Cayleigh in my lap) danced to The Gummy Bear Song, I like to Dance (Yo Gabba Gabba) and apparently Cay had worked up such a sweat that she coughed up a mess of nasty while I was holding her. You learn not to mind when the trach sprays you because it's better out than in I always say (If you've heard that line before, you know what my DVD Movie Collection consists of).

We had to leave and I made it back within 5 minutes of Jake getting out. I suprised him and Julez and he were able to get a book from the book fair at their school just like Daddy had promised him. He rode his bike home and I 'raced' him in the van, we got the mail and then went back to school because he'd left his backpack. *sigh* By then Tayla was 5 minutes to be released so I got her out and 'raced' her home too.

The kids and I went to Target together and really enjoyed our day. Got groceries and Julez muscled her way through not only unloading the cart contents onto the belt, but also putting all the bags back into the cart (inlcluding Milk and heavy Mott's juice packs), and THEN insisted on loading them into the van for me. That earned her a whopping 5 points. She was definitely pulling a "Find ways to show love and caring for another person" which is a house rule. They were all so good they pulled a Super Card and got things like "30 minutes DSI, 30 minutes TV and a Stay up 30 Minutes Late". THEN I told the kids to unload the groceries and help put them away, and that today would be Double Point Day because it's my Bday. THAT motivated them. It also motivated them that for every 3rd chore they did they'd get 3 points! If you're wondering what I mean about the Points and the Super Cards - it's all a part of the Dulik Rewards & Consequences system.

The kids need to do chores. Nic and I need sanity. So we decided to start a system where the child chooses a Chore Card (notecard pushpinned to a piece of felt on our wall) with the chore they want to do. They are to complete it without instruction or reminding and to our satisfaction and then, upon us approving the job done, they earn themselves a Point Card. It says 1 POINT with a yellow smiley face. I just printed them out on white cardstock and cut them. Used a hole punch and they each string their Point Cards onto their own rings (Binder Ring - Walmart for $2) everytime they earn one. Nic or I write their name and initial it so there is no trading, stealing, losing, etc.

A list of the family rules hangs above the felt board w/the chores on it. Next to that is the belt. They each must do one chore a day...regardless. They earn a Super Card (which they get to pick from a random deck we made) if they're going out of their way to be selfless and caring/loving. It's stuff like I mentioned earlier. As for the Points - well, they collect them all week long and then on Sunday, after church, the Family Store is open. They can 'shop' with their points. There is a key on the wall that shows a Smiley Face Sticker (in different colors) with their Point Value. Everything in our "Family Store" container is labeled with a corresponding smiley face sticker. For instance, the Pink Sticker means that item is 5 points. They can cash in or save. Goes up to 50

Tonight I was sitting on the floor while Jake played DSI (cashed in that Super Card) and started making Tayla's IPOD Valentines for her class. Theres alot of work involved and Juliette and Jake were eager to assist. Tayla even came up to help. It was just a great family project and night. Our house is clean, kids are in bed and I'm about to fall asleep just typing this - tomorrow I switch with Nic. They're keeping Cayleigh because she needs strong meds to knock out her yucky, but she has to go to UCSF or CHO because she's considered 'special needs' and the hospital she's at isn't equipped to use a ventilator if they ever needed to. (which, they wont)

So its a waiting game right now. UCSF had only 1 bed available in the PICU today (she has to be in PICU because of the amount of suctioning and care she needs) so we might do CHO - but only if we'd be in the PICU - I don't do the CHO Step Down Ped's floor. WILL. NOT. DO. IT.

My blessing are ABUDANT

#1 I am thankful for 30 years on the planet and for all Christ has taught me so far
#2 I am thankful for Jesus Christ
#3 I am thankful for His Word
#4 I am thankful for my Salvation
#5 I am thankful for my Husband
#5 I am thankful for my Children
#6 I am just plain grateful. God is GOOD